Rolex 2017

Oh my goodness! Hey guys! It’s been forever! So sorry about that. Anyways, I figured I’d give y’all a little bit of an update, and some exciting news. 

1. I’ll be attending my first Rolex this year (yay!!), and I’d love to meet some of you ❤

2. I’m getting a new jump saddle, so my current one will be for sale within the next month or so.
I feel like there was more news but oh well. I’m going to try and get a BUNCH of pictures at Rolex and try and get some new topics/ideas so that I can post more often. I just really haven’t had the motivation. I’m thinking of doing a “My Equine Essentials…” or something along those lines. What do you think? 

I’ve been at the barn quite a lot recently, gearing up for the season, and I think during May, every weekend, I’ll be trailerinf up to Huntley to get jump lessons with my coach up there, until Zach (Zachary Brandt Eventing) comes back for the summer. 

I’m feeling really confident in Bennett and I’s dressage for this year, so I hope the scores really reflect that. It’s always going to be a trial and error with him, I swear. 
Okay, that’s all I have ❤

XOXO,

Mary

Rock Bottom

Hey guys!

Sorry it’s been forever. I don’t know why, I just haven’t had the motivation. 

Recently, I feel as though I’ve hit rock bottom. Bennett has problems, my hobby (collecting model horses), well… I might as well just quit it, there’s so much drama. 

My birthday was a week and a half ago, and that really picked me up. My parents spoiled me beyond belief, with a new phone, a Criminal Minds sweatshirt (Team Reid!), and so many other things, I can’t thank them enough. 

Therapy is really really helping. I just vent a lot when I’m there, and it makes me feel so much better, like there’s actually hope. 
Sorry it’s not long guys, but I’m T-I-R-E-D!

XOXO,

Mary ❤

Florida 2017

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Hi guys (: It’s been a while! I didn’t want to post for a bit because I went to Rocking Horse II and I wanted my new post to be a picture from it! I think overall they turned out pretty well, actually. I got to meet @skipperdoodlefritz (JJ Sillman), and she was so nice to me and I  loved her. The first thing she said to me when I met her was, “Does your phone have any bars?!” because on cross country, you’re pretty much in the middle of a forest. I also met the fantabulous Cora and Ava Severs (@eventing_cuervo and @ruby.and.ava.eventing on instagram) and I just loved it.

Now, instead of ranting, let’s actually get something done. Recently, I’ve had a lot to think about in regards to riding. Bennett has become extremely bad with his head when I’m riding him, to the point where it gets a little unsafe sometimes. It’s discouraging to say the least. My parents told me that they would buy me another horse, but is that what I really want? No, not really.

I’d rather work at it. I’d rather work for my success than buy it. I bought Bennett knowing that his dressage wasn’t great, his jumping was just okay, and his personality was golden. I can’t even imagine doing this with any other horse.

I figured that if anyone reading this wanted to see/meet me, I’d put my event schedule up, so look for that in the next post. Thanks, loves ❤

XOXO,

Mary ❤

 

(Hannah & Zen, Rocking Horse II ’17)

Profession


Hey all (: sorry it’s been a while!

It might just be me, but I like to have my life planned out. Since my sister, Hannah (shown above) went away to college, I’ve known that I want to get a major in Equine Management and a minor in Spanish. Welp. Not anymore! I’ve been watching a toooonnnn of Criminal Minds recently (don’t judge but I definitely watched all of season 1 in like 4 days not even kidding), and watching Dr. Reid, Hotch, Gideon, Morgan, and all of then profile is amazing. It looks so. Fun.

Dr. Reid is my favorite character. Spence for the win. So it isn’t surprising that after watching them do their thing, I want to become a Profiler. Now, that isn’t exactly reasonable for me, for a couple of reasons.

Reason one being that’s a lot of school. And I’m not necessarily the best at school. Well, I shouldn’t say that. I’m actually pretty good at school, so I guess this isn’t a reason.

Reason two, there are a lot of requirements, and things that I have to do. I have to do some intern stuff, I have to do a lot of school (like said above), and get a major in something like Psychology. As fun as being a profiler sounds, I’m not sure I could handle majoring in Psych.

Reason three: I don’t think I’m emotionally and mentally stable enough for a job like that. I mean, that’s why I go to therapy.

Speaking of therapy, I had a good time on Wednesday! We talked about a lot of different things (including Profiling/ Criminal Minds), and my therapist says I’m analytical, which could be why I’m normally pretty quiet around people I don’t know. I like to take in my surroundings and notice little things that most people wouldn’t. Wether it be a change in voice pitch when someone talks about something they love or hate, or a fidget when someone lies. Either way, I notice things that most people don’t. It’s a good thing and a bad thing, but in the case of wanting to be a Profiler, it’s a good thing. A Profiler has to notice things that a normal officer wouldn’t notice. They have to piece together a profile of the Unsub (Unknown Subject) from things that are missing from the crime scene, the way in which the murder/ illegal activity was committed, how the Unsub presents themselves, things like that. It’s a lot of work. I have another therapy meeting on Monday, and I’d like to continue talking about things like this. I really enjoy it ❤

 

XOXO,

Mary

 

Hannah & Unknown

Story time!


Hi guys!

So, I’ve been feeling pretty down lately (hence the lack of blog posts), so I figured, “hey, you can’t go wrong with a story time.” And here I am!

The day I met my best friend, it was 90 degrees (the high was like 100 or something ridiculous), and it had been a long, sun filled day. 

I was at Breyerfest, a model horse convention (giant get together?) where hobbyists literally come from all over the world to shop and show these plastic horses. I was at the Clarion, trying to find my friend Erika’s room. I was looking down, texting (don’t text and walk it’s dangerous), and literally ran into this poor girl. Me being me, I’m immediately embarrassed and pretty much sobbing. After I said I was sorry, we kind of just split ways. That was in July of 2015. Fast forward to December and I find the girl on Instagram! So I of course follow her and DM her explaining who I was. We immediately hit it off. 

And I guess that’s pretty much the story of how I met my best friend. She’s amazing and I love her so much, shout out to Collyn ❤

So yeah guys, I’ve been feeling pretty down and alone lately, but I think that’s just because I haven’t been to therapy in 2 weeks (the earliest they could fit me in again is this coming Wednesday, and then it’s consistently going to be on Monday’s), but I feel just kind of mad and I’m not sure. 

As always, I love you all.

-Mary ❤
Jessica & Madelyn

Disaster Strikes


Yes, you read that right. Disaster (of course) has to find me within the first month of the new year. A couple of days ago, when I went out to the barn, the owner had to inform me of my brilliant horse and what he did to his stall. You see, how part of our barn is set up, a couple of the stalls are attached to a stall that has a paddock. So in my case, it was Bennett’s stall, Jessica’s stall, and then a paddock. Well. My brilliant horse (keep in mind he only has shoes on his front hooves) managed to kick the steel door frame away from the cement wall. Cement. Wall. He cut up his leg a bit (nothing bad, pretty much just surface wounds), but he’s been completely sound. What a psycho. 

Then today, while I was riding him (first day back since Monday because I gave him Tuesday off to be sure, Wednesday was my dad’s birthday, and yesterday my mom was very invested in Fox News), he spooks at a shadow (?), bucks, then starts galloping around like a psycho. I lost my left stirrup but somehow I stayed on. Don’t ask me how, but I did. 
I’m going out to the barn early tomorrow, and I think it will be a dressage day (mostly because I’m too lazy to keep dragging my jump tack out to the barn), so we’ll see how that goes. 

xoxo,

Mary ❤
Moxie & Kennedy

New Beginnings

Hello lovelies (:

As promised, I’m making this post because today was my first day with my therapist. 

I was really nervous at first, because I know my therapist on a different level (I know his wife from my old barn and had met him a couple of times) and so that had me really psyched out and distressed. However, once my mom had left, things got really relaxed. 

It was therapy today more as it was just me telling stories and letting my therapist get to know me, which was extremely eye opening, because I learned some things about myself as well. 

Guys, I guess the point of this post is to tell you all that therapy doesn’t have to be a scary thing. It doesn’t have to be something you dread. After today I can tell you honestly that I do have issues that need fixing, and that I’m really looking forward to therapy. I think it will be extremely beneficial for my mental and social health, as well as my overall wellbeing. As always, I love you all, and please don’t be afraid to come to me and just vent. My therapist was telling me about the P/T Confidentiality agreement. If you choose to come to me, I will honor the same thing. 

xoxo,

Mary

Week in Review

Hey guys! Sorry it’s been a while (>.<).

So I figured I’d just recap my week (: 

Monday and Tuesday were awesome, they were my last couple of days off school. I believe I went to see Bennett on Tuesday, but I honestly can’t remember. Wednesday was my first day back, and it went a lot better than I thought. I met my new teachers (student teacher in Honors English, new teacher I RWS, new teacher in Spanish II) and they’re all pretty cool. Thursday started out rough, because I completely embarrassed myself in English, but it’s okay because then I saw Bennett and he was so good <3. Friday was great because yay! Weekend! Honestly I can’t remember if I went to see Bennett or not, but let’s just say I did. Saturday was amazing and chill, even if I didn’t go see my pony. The roads were bad, so we didn’t bother. I did however get my hair cut, and you probably couldn’t even tell the difference because I always have them take off bare minimum. And today was fun because my dad came home from Cali and we just finished playing Clue (spoiler alert I lost). Tomorrow I’m going to see Bennett and it’s my first day of therapy, so I’ll update you guys on that afterwards (:

xoxo,

Mary

School & Riding

Hi guys!

Today was my first day back to school, and I can honesty tell you that it was okay. Now it wasn’t perfect, but school was okay today. This probably isn’t interesting to you guys, so let’s get to better stuff. 

I haven’t used my camera in a couple of weeks now, and it’s killing me. Maybe that’s a little dramatic, but I’m itching to take pictures again. 

I’ll explain today’s picture. It’s my best friend, Kennedy, giving my friend Nicole’s horse Scotty a kiss. It was one of the first pictures I was proud of, which is why it’s today’s picture. Because I’m proud of today and the little achievements I made. I’m happy for myself because I didn’t freak out as much as I usually do. It overall was a really good day. This picture was taken on a good day, so that’s why I shared it. 

Today, my ride on Bennett made me really happy. He overall was very supple in the bridle and listened to my cues. Now. I am not saying that he was perfect. Because he wasn’t. He did a little half rear and sometimes he wouldn’t go forward when my reins got too short for him, but that’s okay. You have to celebrate the little victories, especially with a horse like Bennett. Not a problem horse, a quirky horse. Because overall Bennett is an amazing horse and I’m so lucky to have him. I’m going to sign off and leave you guys with a picture of Bennett. 

PS- sorry it’s an iPhone picture. 

xoxo,

Mary ❤

(Scotty & Kennedy)

First Post!

Okay. This may or may not be very long, but I’m going to tell you all exactly why I’ve started A&A.

Mostly, it’s just an experiment for me, you know? Just to see if I like it, and to see if I want to stick with it. It’s always difficult for me to commit to these types of things, but I’m going to commit for at least one year. So yeah, this is going to be pretty difficult for me, but who doesn’t like a challenge? I know I do! Okay, that’s a lie. Challenging things are really hard for me.

I also started this blog because I’m starting therapy this year. While many people prefer to start YouTube channels when they’re going through things like this (I’m thinking of The Gabbie Show because I love her and she’s so strong okay leave me alone), a blog is easier for me because I love to write and I love to take pictures. Just not of myself. I’d much rather be behind the lens, where I am known but not seen.

That got really off topic oh my goodness. Okay, back to therapy.

I’m not going to say why (yet) I’m starting therapy, but I’m sure I’ll let you all know sooner or later. I hope to make this blog fun for everybody, and I will take requests on what to post! If you guys want my favorite brands or something, I’ll totally do that. Power of the People amiright.

 

So for now this will conclude my first post until my website is finished (who knows, it probably will never be 100% finished), but that’s okay.

XOXO,

Mary ❤

(Jessica & Madelyn, Summer ’16)